a venting post

This post will have absolutely nothing to do with my kids or anything anyone would probably care to know about me, but is more for my emotional well being than anything else. A few things have been bothering me lately, and today just seems to be the day where I melt down. (no this has nothing to do with Tyler or my children misbehaving, because they're wonderful.)

Sometimes I just miss former phases of my life. I REALLY miss when we were out in Rexburg for the last few semesters of school. We were there with my sister Carrie and her husband Duben, and we would do things together quite frequently. It was wonderful being with her out there. And Tyler was in sports heaven being on tons of teams for various sports, and I LOVE watching him run around being a sports superstar.

I also really miss Raleigh. Yet again, I was with a sister (Jamie) who is pretty much the only person I ever did things with. Our cute little girls adored each other even though Kendalynn was only around a year old and Emmy was 4ish.

I liked the drama free aspects of being friends with my sisters. I like knowing I'm with people who aren't going to talk about me in a rude way when I'm not around. When I hear things going around with my name attached, it haunts me. I'm really not a mean person. (I promise!) I don't like talking negative about other people, and I really don't like hearing other people talk negatively about people. (I am a firm believer that if anything is ever bothering me, Tyler is the only person I should ever share details with. I know he's not going to go blab to someone else, and then usually once I say it out loud I get over it.) So when people think that I am mean or that I did something mean, I seriously feel sick about it and it bothers me for days or weeks even. It just eats at me. So I have decided to become a social hermit...Tyler is the only friend I need. :)

Okay...Logan is asking to go down for a nap (what an awesome kid!) and Kendalynn is getting frustrated because I promised her a movie today. :p So if you made it this far into my post, thanks for caring about my silly self enough to read this. :)